peace,
-$$$.
Friday, March 12, 2010
M.I.A.
Sorry, I know I'm lacking on the posts. Life is a bitch, tryna keep her from being a widow. Working on a lot of side projects but my #1 is getting my own website together. So look for that to be premiering soon. Keep It 100.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
I'm G.O.D.
yo! -
currently, i'm resting in Upstate NY trying to get my artwork together. as you can see (below) i'm doing a show out here next friday (o2/19/1o) it's going to be something like a interview w| me, &also i'll be performing some officially new pieces. they'll be fresh &yes, i will be recording. (i promise]. so i'd appreciate the l_ve, if you can come, more than welcome to attend; inspiration i'm always seeking for, &anything -- a text, IM, comments... just you know, hit me up. l_ve is l_ve.
life is crazy, global warming is in full effect. blizzards all over, white house can't even get vehicles off the premises. i been trying to tell y'all. it's only cold up here, but it's that dry cold, world is tuff. school is eye-opening but my heart is still being settled. i'm making moves to move. i still feel really accomplished though for taking that first step to start on the path of m.y. life, &no others. so regardless of the obstacles and the tears that fall -- i'm in here, (like swimwear].
i'm falling in love with being behind the lens. i see things in a whole different perspective. i don't like to refer to myself as an artist, just a kid of a searching generation.
different me? -- i guess so. sometimes i wish i could go back to my evil ways, but i'm pass that. growth, understanding, and movement. change is the only constant in this world. i'm feeling removed from this planet, like i belong to another realm. most likely i do, she does call me A.L.I.E.N.
currently, i'm resting in Upstate NY trying to get my artwork together. as you can see (below) i'm doing a show out here next friday (o2/19/1o) it's going to be something like a interview w| me, &also i'll be performing some officially new pieces. they'll be fresh &yes, i will be recording. (i promise]. so i'd appreciate the l_ve, if you can come, more than welcome to attend; inspiration i'm always seeking for, &anything -- a text, IM, comments... just you know, hit me up. l_ve is l_ve.
life is crazy, global warming is in full effect. blizzards all over, white house can't even get vehicles off the premises. i been trying to tell y'all. it's only cold up here, but it's that dry cold, world is tuff. school is eye-opening but my heart is still being settled. i'm making moves to move. i still feel really accomplished though for taking that first step to start on the path of m.y. life, &no others. so regardless of the obstacles and the tears that fall -- i'm in here, (like swimwear].
i'm falling in love with being behind the lens. i see things in a whole different perspective. i don't like to refer to myself as an artist, just a kid of a searching generation.
“The artist is not a person endowed with free will who seeks his own ends, but one who allows art to realize its purposes through him. As a human being he may have moods and a will and personal aims, but as an artist he is ‘man’ in a higher sense — he is ‘collective man,’ a vehicle and molder of the unconscious psychic life of mankind."learning never stops, that's a promise. you can never get tired of gaining knowledge, considering myself as G.O.D. (gaining one's definition). it seems like everytime i get right, life turns me for the wrong. burying another family member next week, just put a friend to rest two weekends ago. it's a way to wake up, and realize this is why i wear my heart on these short sleeves. sketchbook+red pen, red headphones in the ears &red+black bookbag... if you see me, speak. respect, keep it 1oo.
different me? -- i guess so. sometimes i wish i could go back to my evil ways, but i'm pass that. growth, understanding, and movement. change is the only constant in this world. i'm feeling removed from this planet, like i belong to another realm. most likely i do, she does call me A.L.I.E.N.
peace, -will.i.ams
email me: thatpoetace@aim.com
RIP Aunt Punch o2.1o.1o
Friday, February 5, 2010
A FireSide Chat
A FireSide Chat
&Various Acts
Friday, Feb. 19, 2010
@ Thornberrys Restaurant
Friday, January 15, 2010
Subject: Topics.
If all I wrote about was heartbreak, unrequited love, fulfilling love, romance, and passion, more people would read my writing. But that’s not all I write about because there is fucking more to life than that. There’s also art, nature, puppies, babies, old people, relatives, friends, good times, bad times, parties, hangovers, shit days, boredom, depression, memories, feelings of being burnt out, lonely, pathetic, apathetic, indifferent, sad, or happy, genuinely not giving a shit about people’s opinion, or being overwhelmed by it, or, au contraire, en-liberated by it, and a million other things. And if I limited my subjects to romance, I would limit myself -which is what you do if, in fact, romance is all you focus on in your life. So there’s that. I mean it’s cute and all, and obviously you’re a teenager or a young adult and you’re wrapped up in all that, but really, it often kind of sucks for your family and friends when that’s your major priority.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Backdrop America.
as a twenty yr old homosexual female living in the empire state, i believe that i have the most boxed in reality to live in. not to mention that i'm of mixed ethnicity (like most of my generation &+ the post.growing). i find myself struggling between what my options are to check, and what i actually am. i mean if i allowed myself to be determined by America's prescribed analysis i'd be considered African-American. never knocking the beauty of being Black, (which is a correlating but not thematic issue of this post) the truth of the matter is i am so ever confused on not who i am, but more so, how i can be who i am, backdrop America.
i was raised all over the place, uprooted &+ destabilized by two young parents both recent HS graduates, living with their parents, &+ on two different trains of thought. my mother, a lightskin 19yr old at the time, attaining to be a grammar school teacher, resided in the Miller St home of my great-great Aunt, who was strict in her Alabama Southern Baptist ways. paired with my 20yr old darkskin father, who was of Islamic faith, living between the streets &+ the home of my humble Methodist grandmother. and that's just the basis of my conception, i've been raised, or "brought-up", by many peoples that walks adifference. i fail to give you ethnic titles for my parents because they are both mixed, it would be a ridiculous percentage count. i stick to the majorities: dominican, west indian, italian, and black.
the question of my sexuality does not exist, (adhere to old posts where i address those concerns). i have lived all over, dubbing myself "suburban raised-inner city schooled." because i move around so much a friend of mines deemed me "the roamer". reveling myself to Christ at times, living in all walks of life.
how then, complicated in detail, simplistically written, can i be boxed in to what this Americanized idea, and ideal, is of "Black". i guess the most basic manner to explain this is to understand that being Black In America means to ultimately be unequal, lesser in humanization, or any other darkened term to suggest still to the institutionalized separation of thought.
even more perplexing is how do i escape this footprint tagging of negativity &+ downplay of existence. i understand why youths alike myself in age come down to the basic mentality of "this is how they see me (anyhow) so why not get the most out of it, live it out to the fullest." with mainstream America, both in media &+ in the masses, looking on (or down) on all Black and Latino persons to never be accepted anywhere, &+ not to mention the genocide being permitted by not only the external forces (ie: police, politics, and prison), but by the staggering amount of Black-on-Black tragedy, "the limit is the sky" becomes the gates of our livelihood.
i find myself trapped, caged in. relying on the sanity|self-awareness i find in poetry, art, music, and education to not lost myself &+ blur into wasted potential. but rightly so, i would be a liar if i was to say i wasn't worried about my peers. i see the madness, the lies presented as the truth that's fed to them, and i sit beside them and watch as feast-like they sit there &+ eat it all up. i'm wondering if there's a way for me to change the content, or at least change the choice of content.
the more i read the likes of Cornel West, Maya Angelou, Michael Eric Dyson (the populous of the shelf) and listen to Talib Kweli, Immortal Technique, Binary Star; the more i find "real" &+ knowing what's considered "real". if i was to spit those names out to any my age, 98% would not know who i was referring to, replacing with the likes of SouljaBoi, 50 Cent, and other autotuned photoshop corporate owned dummies.
i was raised all over the place, uprooted &+ destabilized by two young parents both recent HS graduates, living with their parents, &+ on two different trains of thought. my mother, a lightskin 19yr old at the time, attaining to be a grammar school teacher, resided in the Miller St home of my great-great Aunt, who was strict in her Alabama Southern Baptist ways. paired with my 20yr old darkskin father, who was of Islamic faith, living between the streets &+ the home of my humble Methodist grandmother. and that's just the basis of my conception, i've been raised, or "brought-up", by many peoples that walks adifference. i fail to give you ethnic titles for my parents because they are both mixed, it would be a ridiculous percentage count. i stick to the majorities: dominican, west indian, italian, and black.
the question of my sexuality does not exist, (adhere to old posts where i address those concerns). i have lived all over, dubbing myself "suburban raised-inner city schooled." because i move around so much a friend of mines deemed me "the roamer". reveling myself to Christ at times, living in all walks of life.
how then, complicated in detail, simplistically written, can i be boxed in to what this Americanized idea, and ideal, is of "Black". i guess the most basic manner to explain this is to understand that being Black In America means to ultimately be unequal, lesser in humanization, or any other darkened term to suggest still to the institutionalized separation of thought.
even more perplexing is how do i escape this footprint tagging of negativity &+ downplay of existence. i understand why youths alike myself in age come down to the basic mentality of "this is how they see me (anyhow) so why not get the most out of it, live it out to the fullest." with mainstream America, both in media &+ in the masses, looking on (or down) on all Black and Latino persons to never be accepted anywhere, &+ not to mention the genocide being permitted by not only the external forces (ie: police, politics, and prison), but by the staggering amount of Black-on-Black tragedy, "the limit is the sky" becomes the gates of our livelihood.
i find myself trapped, caged in. relying on the sanity|self-awareness i find in poetry, art, music, and education to not lost myself &+ blur into wasted potential. but rightly so, i would be a liar if i was to say i wasn't worried about my peers. i see the madness, the lies presented as the truth that's fed to them, and i sit beside them and watch as feast-like they sit there &+ eat it all up. i'm wondering if there's a way for me to change the content, or at least change the choice of content.
the more i read the likes of Cornel West, Maya Angelou, Michael Eric Dyson (the populous of the shelf) and listen to Talib Kweli, Immortal Technique, Binary Star; the more i find "real" &+ knowing what's considered "real". if i was to spit those names out to any my age, 98% would not know who i was referring to, replacing with the likes of SouljaBoi, 50 Cent, and other autotuned photoshop corporate owned dummies.
"self-esteem yo we forgot the dream
on our Jefferson's y'all but we forgot the theme"
-Common, Be
what i write is what many think, at least at one point, but it is in that prime freshness that we have to grab hold of the mental &+ change this cycle of degradance. can't be done overnight &+ won't be down over(air)waves - America benefits too much off of "Black", "ghetto" stereotypes the revolution has to be internal, has to rise from the community. when you settle for less, you get less than what you settled for. we're not settled, but we're settling; take the anger out on the opponent. not the proponent who's trying to do the same as you.
am i suffering from an identity crisis? nah, i know me. i'm just suffering from the afflictions inflicted upon me by America &+ being left out there in the cold. i find a home within myself, i maintain myself, self is safety. because the streets are unforgiving and the suburbs are unforgetting.
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