Heard It All Before

I know, I know - y'all heard it all before. I can't believe that I've managed to keep a blog running for over a year. I'm the kueng of unfinished things. I always begin and forget to end things. I'm already tired of the ''2011'' bs that's circling the worldwideweb right about now. But I can't front; I'm looking forward|ahead for this next year. I have so much in plan.

For one, I'm going to journal myself daily. I'm not sure if it's going to be on the web or not, it will definitely be written though. I'm also going to work on developing my design-line. And lastly, I'm going to get back into school for the Fall Semester. Idgaf if I have to work 3,5jobs.

Confidence does not yield arrogance. These two are not one in the same and much too often the lines get crossed. Mixed signals can impact a first impression. And there's not second chance at making that.

Per usual, I will be dedicated a 2010 Note via my Facebook to those selected. The previous 2years I have included "interests", that resulted into nothing. So I'm teetering the line on that one, yet all in all I am excited. This year flew by no doubt. I'm not really in the Christmas spirit, hence me talking about my New Years plans already. Lol.

Peace,

I don't believe that you can re-transition to a pass 'you.' So when people say "I gotta get me back", you never lost you. I feel like if you don't grow then you won't progress. That's why the people who stay in the same city they grew up in, when you go visit them 20years after high school they still doing the same shit, fucking the same nigga, and even having that same ass hairdo. You have to change some shit up. You have to 'get out' and see the world. At least a different state.

I'm a roamer. I've probably lived in 20 different cities in the last 3years. And I love that about me. It's a new way for me to push my limits of my comfort. Currently, I'm only stable because I need to pay off a tuition bill to get back into school. But once that happens I'll probably be back on my hopping grind. There's no hurt in that to me. I have to experience a different because that's always been my situation: different.

Thankful

I was at work from 930am till 5. It sucked major monkey butt. People asking for the most random shit because we were literally the only store open. But my favorite customer, Larry, came into the store tonight to get his daily lottery. When he saw I was working he was not having it. So he went home, made me 2 plates - 1 with all the works: mac&cheese, mashed potatoes, greens, turkey, steak & peppers, stuffing (or dressing lol) and 1 with peach cobbler & candy yams. "From us to you sweetheart" he said, after punking out the White boy, Mikey, about how "stuffing supposed to look. Not that dry stuff y'all be having!" Lol, much love.

And that right there - I am Thankful for.

Random Rant

I need to get over my insecurity of being short. My height is probably the biggest challenge I face in the mirror. I don't wear what I want to wear, I can't fit into clothes the way I want to, and everything else. I'm extremely insecure about my height. And it's something that I used to NOT be so bothered by. But now that I'm considered an ''adult'' in this fcuked up judgmental world, I feel more and more annoyed that I'm of short stature. I don't know... I guess it's just another one of those I gotta work on accepting. Cause ain't no way in changing this one.

Battle Inside

You gotta be a big girl now
No time for tears
There's no time to sit on the sideline
I need you in the game
The balls coming your way
Don't pass go
Do not collect $200
Just
Stay