Tuesday, September 22, 2009


She speaks &+ breathes her air into ears phenomenally heartbeats are fast paced, racing to keep up yet its easier to breathe. Easier for me. Yet I can't reach the insides of her membrane; please just let me embrace your brain. Let me stroke away some of the pain w| the brushhairs of  my fingertips. Stroke away some of the pain thats driving you insane, because you can't come crashing down - you are my sanity. You are that peace of me that keeps me from breaking and tipping over pass capacity tipping over that line. I'd be lying if I were to say I didn't believe you were mine. I'd be telling stories to the biggest wide-eyed kid in the world; soured by my tongues bitterness spitting it all back up at me. Especially, if I didn't say that my care for is beyond this space; It's tumbled into the next galaxy. And I'm steadily falling falling falling - fallen dropping back down to my knees like an unkept satellite. Not this time, in my mind I have dreams so deep that I envision my hand dipping into the heavens to replace gods romances that have been lost in the black holes of life. Trying to keep on track w| your stride but you're much bigger than me. So I struggle all the time to get inside of your mind though you claim that's where I reside. Trust I clean my feet before entering through the sight of your eyes. But it's getting kinda cold because you no longer enjoy the sunshine. I read in between your lines and see the invisible ink that you've written in. Your pen cries away, wishing that someone could come and rearrange the lines that have gotten you displaced. There's no pink margins for whats wrong and whats right. That's why people invade and overtake the beautiful things in life. We have environmentalist screaming about global warming. As a human resource I wonder where is my warning. When will I get the chance to envelope the one who needs me most. Her pad has been filled w| rhymes so ill that it makes a knot in my stomach; which she untangles w| her smile. It's driving me wild to see her taken and broken down and it wasn't until now that i found the words to finish this poem. Emptiness fulfills every house, not a home. But you are home. You are my peace of mind. Eventually the pull of gravity will pull you into me. And we'll crash into this world together; standing hand in hand. Causing people to question the laws of nature written by man because our chemistry is more than any book could ever contain. Blasting into a cosmic reaction; acidic based advancing technology beyond this century.

Written in my phone 091909.

Monday, September 14, 2009

WakeUp; Mr. West

Picture Idea via Vic [@theePROTEGE]
reCAP: If you somehow missed the VMAs last night; then you missed out on a beautiful thing. Janet Jackson (&+ Laurie Ann Gibson] threw it down with the Tribute to Michael Jackson. Madonna delivered a fantastic speech that brought tears to my eyes. Russell Brand got on stage &+ started the show; Best Female Video of the Year *drumroll* - Taylor Swift ! So as young 19yr old Taylor is on stage giving her thanks on how she "Never thought I'd get one of these, I sing country!" -- Mr. Controversial steps on stage, takes the mic, and blasts it raw &+ truth:
"Taylor I'm happy for you... but I gotta say that Beyonce had one of the best videos ever."

-Facepalms- Come on `Ye ; Not again. I think you just Chris Brown`d your career. (ROTFLMAODEAD].
Anybody that knows me, knows that I personally believe that Kanye West is #1 in the rap game right now. (If you want to know more of the list, request; I will tell you &+ I have legit reasons as to why I believe this]

iSupport Kanye.

Last year during an interview Mr. West was quoted as saying "I don't talk negatively about anyone else. I just talk about myself - and that's why I say what I want." Truth. Kanye has never called anyone out, he has never shitted or dogged out anyone else in the music industry, he didn't even DISSrespect Taylor Swift on the VMAs. What he did do was get up there, and yes rudely in the middle of her speech, say what's real. Beyonce did have one of the best videos of the year & everyone was pissed that Taylor Swift won the VMA. Why? Because nobody really ever saw the video; compared to how many people have seen Beyonce's "Single Ladies." Let's just take Youtube stats (which is credible, the US Supreme Court has reviewed video's on YT for judgment decisions).

Beyonce "Single Ladies" 11 months ago 66,027,566 views
Taylor Swift "You Belong To Me" 3 months ago 2,924,747 views

Now, Best Female Video of the YEAR  ; Beyonce's video has been out for almost a year vs. Taylor's has been out for the summer. *scratches chin* 

As far as Kanye? There's a lot of explanations for his behavior. 
1) It's Kanye - Why is everyone tweaking|tweeting about him being his normal arrogant outspoken self.
2) He was pictures leaving the event with a bottle of Henny in his hand, Amber Rose on the other side. 
So we all know "When the Henny's in the system aint no telling...." 

Explanations; NOT Excuses. (Check the word choice]

&+ Taylor didn't even stand up for herself; it's the VMAs - it's a party.She just stood there on some real white girl bullshit. Making motions with her mouth but nothing coming out. She's 19yrs old, she got time to get that much of her self esteem back. She could have been on some real regular stuff and LOL`d about it "Anyhow, I'd like to thank..." BOMB. Issue OVER.

Let's not even speak about the catastrophe of Lady Gaga's hatching (yes, hatching] of a performance. OR Lil Mama`s random ass poppin` on the stage of Jay-Z's & Alicia Keys bomb ass performance. POSTED LIKE:

-DEAD; I had to do it.-

Kanye West is probably one of the most controversial names in the music game. Remember this is also the same man who said last year that he is the "Michael Jackson of this generation." - Michael Jackson was controversial in EVERYTHING he did. This isn't the first time there's been an interruption on stage at the VMAs. Old Dirty Bastard hopped on stage during the Fugee's announcement of the `98 VMAs.  

He apologized (via BLOG | Click here ) ; which was really odd of him, I didn't expect it. HOWEVER he still stood his ground. Stating how he felt, and how he's sorry for taking away Taylor's moment. BUT he kept it real - as he did on stage.

You have to be you all the time regardless where you are. At the end of the day I say this about the entire situation "You spent all day coloring that picture but your teacher STILL put up Sally's & not yours....
& you let that hoe use your crayons." 


Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Retrospect 4Life.

The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating...

...and you finish off as an orgasm.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

L_ve Snuffed Me.

Some months ago, before anything happened this summer - Oatz sent me this quote that remains locked in my phone. "Love takes off masks we fear we canNOT live w|OUT && know we canNOT live w|IN." -- often I've applied this to various situations in my life. Situations w| past relationships, situations where I throw it in there for good convo, situations for advice for|to friends. I've used it over && over; never once applying it to myself. My passions, Mr. Wilde are not a mere quotation.--

Yet I wonder about this quote now. My summer is definitely shutDOWN; && with what's been going on lately in my life -- the quote echoes a relevance in my membrane tapping my eardrum with questions;
What (the fcuk] is up with my mask?

L_ve removes our masks w|OUT notification|warning. There's no disclaimer. It's more like a smile, a finding of a common thought frame - blasphemous accusations. There's a comfortableness in the unease l_ve puts you in. ; I h_te l_ve. I h_te l_ve because one doesNOT have to do anything extra|ordinary in order to wiggle themselves into your captivity of being. Moving into all of your thoughts & making a home inside your chest. A heart beat who's rhythm no longer vibes from your step; but l_ve`s voice. And before you know it you're humming a different melody. Swept up in the honey moon stages of passions coasting on a fresh new air wave.

Yeah that's l_ve. And you don't even realize you've been pickpocket`d. You've been robbed of your mask & now you're vulnerable & the only thing to put you in a feeling of security|safeNET - is this thief.

(Now; aint that some bullshit?]

L_ve steals. It takes all of you & shares it w| someone new. Someone who you hope|wish & never even think will be like the last. They can't be.

"Say you gotta take the good & the bad, the happy & the sad. But when you bring a better future than I had in the past; `Cause I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did - I don`t wanna fall back on my face again."

I'm stepping back, fighting the force of this undefined|inFAMOUS law of nature whose fields are pulling me flat on my face. -- "Go ahead, I`ll always catch you." I'm not sure, though broken promises are better than none at all right. My safeNET is in your embrace. You are my spotter as life throws me in the air.--

Yes, I know that I have to come back down. I just want to keep my mask on straight when I hit; so you won't see me at rockBOTTOM.

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